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Matte Kudasai
23. Female.
Current location - Falmouth.
I seriously can’t do this whole staying in thing. I need to see people. Fuck.
Too ill to get up. But I need toner in my life! I need silver hair! gah! I hate not leaving the house in the day. Will actually have to force myself to stay in bed tonight, last night was silly. Maybe all this coughing will give my stomach muscles a work out though, that would be nice. Ooh nap time i think.
Surrounded by beautiful girls all night. Girls that I could sleep with in a second. But i only want one. The only one I don’t even know about anymore. Fml.
So last night started with me being a moody little bitch. I was pretty mad at life. But it ended in dancing, a lot of dancing, and seeing Poppy, and going to the beach, and basically being awesome. Not gonna lie, I fucking love club I. Managed to cut my knee again though. My left leg must hate me.
Fuck feelings. Fuck liking people. Fuck loving people. Fucking thinking about people. Fuck everything about anyone. Fuck you. Fuck everything. Fuck actually really fucking loving you. Fuck. Fuck pretending everything’s OK.
Feeling like a massive dick really doesn’t help one get to sleep. I’m mad at my own self for thinking and feeling too much over the last few months. What a twat.
An absolutely stunning night. Gylly beach with Marc, Lindsey, Wife, Elektra, Leanne, Matt, Pete, Emily, Sophie and so so many more of my amazing friends, celebrating Raz’s birthday. There was food, music, fire, booze, a beautiful starry sky and just loads of laughter. I rugby tackled Linz over a badminton racket, undid Elektra’s bra through her jumper (win), got a massage from a random man, finally got a kiss from Raz and had a hilarious peeing mission with Leanne and Elektra. For a first bbq of the year I can safely say it was awesome.
Last night was fun. Nicole and I were reunited after about nine months apart, needless to say tequila and nakedness were both involved in a big way. Today I woke up bruised and battered and smiling. After an entire week of drinking though my insides hurt and my tongue is pickled, so this is not going to be a boozy few days. At least I have loads on to distract me.
Tonight I am watching Game Of Thrones, eating coq au vin then reading and sleeping.
Looking forward to waking up feeling normal tomorrow.
Oh you fabulous, fabulous man.
Drew Barrymore, “Beauty is so within. I don’t care if you’re the most attractive person on the planet…if you’re not good inside, it will show. You fall in love with people from the inside out.”
I love Drew.
23…
…and still making out in pub toilets.
I eat colin? (Taken with instagram)
Taken with instagram
Found ‘im! (Taken with instagram)
